Strength for today

When I opened my Bible this morning I happened to turn to Isaiah where these words were underlined: "He gives power to those who are tired and worn out; he offers strength to the weak. Even youths will become exhausted, and young men will give up. But those who wait on the Lord will find new strength. They will fly high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint." It seemed God's words were meant for me. I count on His strength daily and He never fails. It made me wonder what I miss when I don't take the time to open His word.


Picked up Tom's perscription early. When I came back to pick Tom up for church he said he was too tired and just wanted to go back to bed. I asked him how he was doing and he wrote, "Mentally I am just fine." I asked how he was with his body and he wrote, "I'm learning to accept it." I got a small white board yesterday and he is using it a lot to communicate. He says he would prefer it to some high tech gadget. Later he wrote a really funny response to something I said that made me laugh really hard. He wrote, "I love to make you laugh!!" He's been doing that for 40 years. He'd better not stop now is what I say!


I don't like being without Tom at church--reminds me of our younger years when he travelled so much and often I went without him. It was always hard to see other couples sitting with each other and not have my Tom. Today I tried to turn it for the good and thanked God for the couple relationships and that they would remain strong.


I don't know how to respond when someone asks how I'm doing. Sometimes it feels like there should be a right answer and I don't know it. I think Tom and I are at a similar place--we're both learning to accept it for what it is. We're pretty simple thinkers--Tom and me. We don't really ask the why us or shake our fists--why not us and how can we be angry when we've been so incredibly blessed our whole lives. Lately I've been praying to see this from God's perspective--not there yet but I trust He has us in His hands and will use this for His good.

Hugs and a person's presence are still the most appreciated means of communicating care and support. Words are good but there's nothing that anyone can say that will change what is. I know it's hard to know what to say--I've tried to say the right thing many times when someone is hurting and always it seems that words fall short. We really can't understand exactly what someone else is feeling or experiencing because we all come into an experience with different histories/pasts/beliefs and those affect our present. What I find myself enjoying is hearing what is happening in other lives--it's a way of connecting with life--if that makes any sense. OK, now I'm getting into deeper thought and I'm ready to move on.

We spent some time with Kylisa and Chris, Jackson (almost 3) and Grayson (1) today. Tom enjoyed pitching the baseball to the boys and we both enjoyed watching their energy and enthusiasm. Oh, the joy of being family!