It's Friday but Sunday is comin'

What is the difference between Outlook, Internet and Internet Explorer. I am so confused. I just updated Outlook with addresses and emails but then couldn't use it to send out emails so added them to the internet site but then I go to Internet Explorer to get on this blog. What am I missing?!

Things like feeding and sleeping have been going smooth for the last two days--YEAH! But Tom is still having a great deal of difficulty managing his saliva because the muscles in his esophagus are weak. We've tried drying it up but that doesn't feel good if it gets too dry. We're trying something new--thinning it out with Robitussen. Again, it's a trial and error process. The hardest part is that Tom doesn't like to speak when he's having this problem. This morning he woke up with a stronger voice than he's had in days--it was so good to hear him talk. Hopefully we can get it worked out.

We took a drive in the sun today--it was such a beautiful day. We were headed to Snoqualmie Falls but made it as far as Redmond. That town is sure changing. I grew up in Redmond and I remember seeing the population sign by the side of the road that read 1500! I remember when there was only one apartment building in town. I remember the Chamber of Commerce being concerned about how to get more pedestrian traffic in town. We drove by the two houses we lived in--good memories from both.

Last night I laid awake for awhile thinking and talking to God. One of my questions to Him was how I could be feeling so at peace in the midst of this storm--at least for today, I'm only taking it one day (or less) at a time. He gave me a visual picture (this isn't the first time--guess I must be a visual learner)--the picture was of a ball that someone was trying to force under water. Everytime they tried it popped back up to the surface. I'm that ball--that's exactly the way it feels. Can't explain it. Can't understand it. (Greater is He that in me!) Just know that I am very thankful for His grace and peace in my life for today. I've said it before but I'll say it again--don't want to waste any of this time that Tom and I have together whatever the future holds.

Can't imagine going through illness/hard times without having Jesus with me. I remember when Tom had open heart surgery back in 2002. I was going to kiss him goodbye not knowing what the day would bring. Wondering what to say I heard these words come out of my mouth--"you love Jesus, I love Jesus, Jesus loves us--we're going to be okay."

That brings up another memory--when Tom was coming out of the anesthesia he was kind of in and out. I asked him how he felt. He said he felt like he was going up and down. I said, like a see-saw? He said yes and that there was a pretty girl on the other end. He had a very cute nurse and I asked him if that's who he meant. He said, 'No, it's Cathy!" Under drugs and everything! Boy, did he earn big points that day!

Another visual that God gave me years ago (now I'm on a roll!) was when I left the church after my first Sunday "on the job". I was crying because I realized it was so much bigger than I imagined and I didn't think I was up to the task. God gave me a visual of Him reaching down with His right hand to take my hand and giving me the assurance that He would never let go. He's kept that promise!

Tomorrow morning our youngest grandson, Grayson (just turned 1) is coming over to hang out for while. Looking forward to playing 1 year old games! With that in mind I had better close and get to bed. One more medication for Tom and then we're done for the night.