a feeling

you ask what I am feeling--incredible sadness. But what lies within that sadness--I cannot, will not go there. If I stay there, rest there, wallow there I will not be any good for Tom. He needs me to be positive and up beat. He's always been that for me and I will not let him down--with the help of my Lord and my God we WILL stay as full of life as we can--we will enjoy every bit of life we have together for as long as we have life. I pray others will join me in celebrating life, not focusing on anything else. Celebrate Tom, remembering all the crazy, kooky things this man of mine has done to bring so much joy to those who know him. Just thinking about some of those times makes me smile. Maybe I will write some of them here but now I am tired--I feel better putting it on "paper"--easier to let it go somehow.