A month latert

Another month has gone by. The biggest challenges have been infection and bleeding in Tom's trach. This week we saw the doctor who perfomed the surgery. He checked everything out and said it's not unusual for it to take several months for the body to heal. Today (Saturday) Tom is doing MUCH better--infection gone and not sign of bleeding! YEAH! Many have prayed and we are very thankful.

There have been some deep valleys this month. I had a horrible dream that I was being chased by someone. I was very frightened because knew I couldn't outrun him. He finally caught me and had a very scary face--that's when I woke up. I couldn't get the dream out of my mind and felt it had some meaning but didn't know what. (I needed Vanessa to interpret it!) Then it came to me--I am loosing my protector and there's a feeling of vulnerability. Two men in my life have given me so much security--my father and my husband. Hadn't consciouslythought of it until that dream. I've also been reminded that when the tears start and feel like they will never end that they actually do end and good days come again.

Today Kemp spent the day with Tom while I had a day out with girlfriends. We enjoyed painting ceramics and then eating together. The laughter was the best. It felt so good--can't wait to do it again. It's hard to leave Tom but I know it's important to stay healthy and spending times with good friends is very healing.

Hard to believe it's been a whole year since Tom was first diagnosed.